Anytime: Blessed.

I just wanted to take a bit to echo what Erin wrote about last week.

I have a quote framed at my bedside that reads, “Whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.” Sometimes I have to remind myself I’m not in control and to just let things be and let the world take its course. Generally, I see this as a “make yourself feel better about the way things are” kinda quote, but more recently I have seen it in a different light…

Although I am a dreamer I also have a very logical mind. I like to weigh my odds, and think about all the facts. So, when things aren’t logical it really throws me off. Lately I have been thrown off completely, but in a way that I really like. I have been feeling so grateful, happy, and blessed about my life and the business. I am so excited about how things are going and I am even more excited to see where our path will take us. It is just kind of funny to me because my life is nothing I ever expected or dreamed or anything I deserve, but I love it! Lalalalalooove it. It is hard for me to comprehend that things are the way they are and I didn’t even ask for it. I have just been going with the flow, and pouring my heart into it along the way. I have to remind myself daily to thank God for all he has given me that I never even asked for. As I am thanking God for everything I have that I never asked for, I also have to be thankful for the things I asked for and didn’t get. I know that he probably puts his palm to his forehead, nears his chin to his chest, smiles and simply shakes his head when he hears most of my requests. (But hey, what’s the harm in asking?) :) It’s funny how I think I know what’s best for me at any particular time. It ends up most of the time I don’t have a clue if what I thought I wanted is what I really wanted anyways. Or quite often I change my mind. Then I change it back. And then I change it back again. (haha, you get the point!) Oh man, just imagine if we all got what we asked for. All I can say is….yikes. And thank you, God, for knowing better.

Anyways, back to the point…I am humbled and grateful knowing that all along God knew what would really make me happy, and even though I never asked for it or knew about it he gave it to me anyway. Wow. I can’t even really explain quite how I feel about all of this because it is so much more than just these words. It’s a feeling in my throat like I want to squeal, it’s a feeling of being smaller in this world, it’s a rush, it’s uncertainty, yet it’s so right …. it’s a complete blessing. And one I get to share with Erin, who is a blessing to me, too. I just want to box up this feeling and keep it forever.

And it’s not to say everything is perfect. We have been eagerly learning from other photographers about improving our workflow and techniques, and there are always life stresses. But, even though orders, emails, and the rest of our mountain of a to-do list keeps growing taller and taller instead of getting stressed out I have been trying to remind myself to be thankful, focus on the good, and get excited!!!

Enjoy your Wednesday!

-S